“You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place, I told him, like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again.” Reading Lolita in Tehran
Ugh, someday, at sometime I will write about my summer plans.. everyone is asking. But right now, I just want to be where I am...and I feel heavy, sad, and confused. I'm trying to be excited and anticipate new opportunities but right now it doesn't feel good. I think I should stay here (in the USA), but at this moment, I want to go (to India). I love loving people. I know to really love them, you have to be invested long term and not just hop in and out each summer. Yet I know that I do encourage them and in return I am encouraged and right now, I want that really bad, in the deepest part of my heart. Nothing seems right, nothing fits. It sounds dramatic maybe but that's how it feels. Ugh!
